Highs and Lows of Trust

I have been so pumped and certain God was doing something big in my life this year. It's only February 1st, so I am still certain He's doing something big, I just have no idea what it is. I was complaining to God that He wasn't going fast enough one day and later in the day it hit me, "Where is my trust?" I was allowing myself to listen to doubt and let my flesh take over. I was not trusting God that He has my family's best interest in mind.

Matthew 7:9-11 "⁹ “You parents—if your children ask for a loaf of bread, do you give them a stone instead? ¹⁰ Or if they ask for a fish, do you give them a snake? Of course not! ¹¹ So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him." This has become one of my absolute favorite "go to" verses since I started staying home October 2011. It is so encouraging. I reminded myself when my trust was fading that my Heavenly Father gives good gifts. He just does. Human Nature, or is it American Culture, wants to be instantly gratified. My timing is not His timing and I must remember His timing is perfect. 


Last night I was reading Acts as Paul was traveling all around and he was talking about the places he'd go and the Jews hated him and always tried to kill him and he'd be in prison all the time etc. He explained that God would tell him what will be waiting for him when he was at the new place to share the Good News of the Gospel but Paul trusted God. Paul knew that God had an ultimate plan and he trusted Him. I want that kind of trust. The kind of trust that doesn't waver no matter what lies ahead of us. God is the one we should trust. 


I am so thankful for a Christian husband. I find that we're a great team over and over. When my trust in God begins to waver, Kris encourages me again that God has us protected. When I really felt convicted that we needed to be faithful in our tithing again, Kris was 100% supportive. I didn't have to plead my case of why we should trust God. My partner in life simply said, "yes". God knew I needed a husband like that, and while I would have had myself married at 16 years old (ha!) I am so thankful that in HIS timing I married the right man. This seems a little off topic, but my point is, my husbands and I need to encourage each other to keep trusting in God, keeping putting our faith in God, keep loving God. God meets our needs, not our incomes.