I haven't had a blog post in almost a year. That's quite amazing to me because it isn't due to a lack of "things" happening, just forgetfulness. The biggest and happiest news is that we are expecting baby #2 in November! I am over the moon and nervous at the same time. Adding a baby can be quite stressful, but he/she will be a blessing and I'm sure there will be a point where we will say "what did we do before this kiddo?". The second piece of news is we are putting in a new kitchen. We want to sell our house and we know this needs to get done. It sure isn't cheap! I am thankful my dad will be helping us to alleviate some of the cost. Thankfully you always get a return on your kitchen (as long as you don't go to above and beyond for your home) and I am thrilled to know that a new kitchen will eventually get us into our forever home.
I have really been seeking God and his heart for me and my family. I have felt him moving since the beginning of the year and knew that He has something for us, specifically me, to do. When I found out I am pregnant I though, "oh, this is it!" but that uneasy but excited feeling in my spirit still hasn't been at peace. I've proposed different ideas to people and continued praying over my life and doing God's will. I am currently asking God to change my heart. Something isn't right in what I am desiring or maybe it's that my whole heart isn't invested in what I know I need to be doing. I do feel that when I am obedient the right doors will open. I have never felt like I need to bang on doors and push them open in order for me to do His will. There will be struggles in the midst of doing the work of completing his plan for my life, but to get there I am ready to do what I need to.
God has given me many early mornings to pray and get in His word. I don't always do it, but I know that's why I'm awake. I always hope that when I open my Bible it will say "Stefanie do this!" and I can get up and do it. However, my name does not appear in the Bible like that but when I read I am encouraged. I pray and I begin to feel peace and I start getting ideas of what I am supposed to do but I still don't have full peace. I definitely do the "OK but am I just thinking that or if I step out in Faith am I stepping out into the wrong thing?". It can be so confusing. All I know is I love God and I want to do His will and He has something for me to benefit my life that brings Him glory.
Enjoy this song. It's been my heart the last couple of weeks.
